It's been a while...

Obviously it's been a while since my last post and one would assume that might be because recovery is a struggle for me right now. I could list several reasons or excuses but none of them really matter much. I'm frustrated and exhausted of fighting and at times just really want to throw in the towel on the whole thing. Motivation is hard to come by currently...hopefully someone that understands will have some words of encouragement and wisdom.

On a positive note the EDA group at Center For Change in Orem that was postponed for a while for restructuring is back up and running! Tuesdays from 5:30pm-6:30pm. YAY!

An explanation without words

I don't know how many of you are fans of the show "So you think you can dance". This week Kayla and her partner Kupono did a contemporary piece choreographed by Mia Michales. I was so struck by this performance. If there was ever a way to tell someone without words how an eating disorder feels...this would have to be it. I found it very moving. I watched it several times and of course found myself in tears. I hope it's something you can relate to as well.

Rock Bottom

Most the time when people talk about "Rock Bottom" it seems to have such a negative connotation. As we touched on briefly in our group meeting tonight, there really is no better, more solid foundation in which to build something grand. I am a firm believer that anything that is worth doing takes time and patience. One of my favorite quotes I have hanging in my home is "nothing grows quickly except for weeds". If we look at our eating disorder as an old dark and worn building would we really want to knock down just half that building and begin to construct something new? Would we spend precious time and valuable materials trying to create something beautiful that would withstand trying winds on the old existing framework? I don't think I would. Rock Bottom allows for a fresh start, a new beginning. Of course the new building will take time...undoubtedly a different amount of time for each of us, but with hard work and supportive friends and family willing to work alongside us we can create whatever we believe. We may even find ourselves in rock bottom on several occasions during our recovery process, I know I have! Any thoughts??

Welcome!

Recovering from an eating disorder is a journey. I started my journey just over two years ago after living in the hell of my eating disorder for more than a decade. Through everything this process brings, I have learned so much about myself. Welcome to this blog. I hope it will be a safe place where all of us on this sometimes very difficult road of recovery can come together and share. Please feel free to share your struggles and trials, triumphs and accomplishments, inspiration and hope. Recovery is not easy but it is possible.

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